I am going on vacation (woo-hoo) until the 13th, so I am listing my weight today (Tuesday)
179 pounds..... nothing changed. I am not going to make excuses, I'll just tell it like it is. I didn't do anything different. I can say, I think I wanted to wait until I get back from California and then clean out the fridge and cabinets and make a fresh start. This I will surely do.
I really do want to lose weight, but there is a part of me that still thinks, I can't do it. I know my problem is I want it to happen immediately. The intelligent part of me reminds me that I didn't gain it immediately, so why should I expect immediate results? Another thing I have a problem with is the obsession with the scales and weighing myself. I am actually ashamed to admit that I probably weigh my self at a minimum of five (5) times a day. You heard me, not five times a week, but each day. I think this stems from having such a poor weight image for so long. You notice I said weight image, not body image. I don't have a Poor Body Image, but when I look in the mirror, I have the "I don't look that bad" reaction.
Bottom line is this. I am sticking to my "one pound per week goal" for the next year, (even though I thought I would lose 5-6 pounds just by telling everyone I was going to lose. Sick reasoning, huh?) and I am adding a "weighing once a week goal". This is going to be a life time goal, in hopes that I will quit obsessing about the numbers on the scale and the magic number in my head that I want to see appear. Although the magic number has gone from 135 to 150 over the years as I age. 135 is probably still a healthy goal, I just have no confidence in myself to think that I will ever see it again.
Enough crying for now. To the folks that are monitoring their weigh in with me here, please put your weight in the comments so I can check it out when I get back next Sunday. I will be experiencing blog withdrawal anyway and hope to have some comments when I come back.
Hang in there and try to eat healthy, drink the amount of water that is right for you and get plenty of rest and some physical activity. Remember, we are in this together.
Talk soon.
2 comments:
Still 195 lbs. so no change here this week, either. I just keep being mindful of what I eat and keep at my activities.
Same here, lost nothing, but my excuse is family visit and lots of food.
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