
Here I am tying up my 48 year old bowling shoes that belonged to my mom. Yes, we come from a family of bowlers.
And here I am getting ready to get ready to roll. This picture reminds me of the whispers I heard when I was a little girl. "Oh, look at her. What a shame, she has such a pretty face." I know I'm not the only one that heard these things as a child. Did they think I couldn't hear them, or that I wouldn't be hurt by this? Another favorite around our house was "she's not fat, she's just solid." Right...solid fat. From the second grade on, I was a chubby little girl and my sister and brother were underweight and fairly normal, in that order. I had various years of a normal sized body, but not that many. In any event, I will admit that I still have good hair and skin and one might say I still have that "pretty face". But it is certainly obvious that I can't hide 197 pounds behind a ten pound bowling ball, so I am actually going to lose weight this year. I would love to lose 50 pounds or more eventually, but right now my goal is 30 pounds. There is a big (pardon the pun) part of me that just knows that I cannot do it. I've tried so many times since Mother Nature sent me my mini-paws. It's just too hard. I know it won't work. But I have to muzzle that little voice and keep on trying. I will not stop trying to shed these excess pounds. Just between you and me, I actually do have a secret goal. My hubby doesn't usually read this blog and I know my sister won't squeal on me...I want muscles. You know, those bigger kind that the ladies that lift weight get. I know it's silly, but I think it would be so cool to actually have muscles that were visible and weren't covered by layers and layers of fat. It sounds ridiculous when I see it typed out like this, so I guess I'll just settle for "getting stronger", but I would love to wear sleeveless tops again and not have the batwings flapping around when I raise my arm. Probably realistically, at my age (58) this is a physical impossibility, but there has to be some in-between that I can reach. Whatever it ends up being, I'm going for it.
I hope you will join me in my quest for a healthier body. I think that together...we can do it.
I'll keep you posted, so remember to stay tuned!
